13-08-2012. Yeh date to aaj se 12 din pehle ki hai. Ashna ne padna start kiya.
Aaj kareeb 12 saal bad Rupali ko dekha, waisi ki waisi he hai wo. Wo apne pati ke sath mere showroom main aayi thi. Jaise he usne muje dekha wo ekdam ruk gei, shayad use pata nahin tha yeh naya showroom mera hai. Khair usne apne pati aur ek choti si bachi ke sath kuch electronics items ki shopping ki. Miane usse baat karne ki koshish ki per Avinash ki upasthiti main usse baat karna theek nahin laga. Jaise he wo log payment karne counter per aaye, uske pati ko kisi ka phone aa geya. Usne Rupali ko payment karne ko kaha aur khud Showroom se bahar chala geya baat karte hue. Maine usse bachi ke bare main pucha to usne kaha ke 7 saal pehle use beti hui thi. Wo baar baar darwaze per dekh rahi thi, kafi uncomfortable feel kar rahi thi wo. Main use is halat main dekh nahin sakta tha. Maine jaldi se unke saman ki receipt unhe thama di bina payment ke to Rupali ne bina na nukar ke receipt li aur bag main dal ker mudne lagi. Maine use pukara to wo ek pal ke liye ruki aur fir palat ker boli. Agar tumhe payment ke paise lene hain to le per mere rastey main dobara mat aana. Main tumse nafrat karne lagi hun Virender. Tum kabhi kisi ladki ko sukhi nahin rakh sakte, tum mentally beemaar ho. Jao aur pehle apna ilaaj karwao. Itna kehker wo mudi aur tezi se darwaze se bahar nikal gei. Main hakka- bakka use jate hue dekhta raha. Kya mera pyar pagalpan hai?. Kya main is kabil nahin tha ke use zindagi ki har khushi de sakta tha? Kya mere family members ke prati uski koi zimmedariyaan nahin thi? Agar main unki mout se pareshan tha to kya uska farz nahin tha ke wo muje sahara de? Kys use he sahara chaiye tha, kya muje sahare ki zaroorat ne thi? Aise he kitne sawal uske agle do pages per likhe they jise padte padte ek baar fir Ashna ki aankhen geeli ho gei. Wo samaj sakti thi ke Virender us din kis haalaat se guzra tha. Ab use Virender ki asli beemari ka pata lag chuka tha. Ant mein us diary main likha tha ” Aaj muje pata laga ke duniya main pyaar ki koi ahmiyat nahin, sab apna fayda dhundte hain. Ashna ne bhi mere sath aisa he kiya. Us hadse ke baad jab use laga ke main toot chuka hun aur use sambhaal nahin sakta to wo bhi muje chod ker chali geyi. Tab to wo choti thi lekin ab to wo bhi samajdar ho gei hogi, lekin usne kabhi mujse milne ki koshish bhi nahin ki, muje samajne ki bhi koshish nahin ki. Sab ladkiyaan aisi he hoti hain. Agar ek jagah baat na bane to wo kisi ko bhi dhokha dekar kahin aur sahara dhund leti hain. Ab samja Rupali ne kabhi mujse pyar nahin kiya, muje nahin samja. I hate you Rupali, I really hate you. I hate you Ashna. Main duniya ki har ladki se nafrat karta. I really hate girls”.
Akhiri lines padte padtey Ashna ke chehre per chinta ki lakeereen saaf dekhi ja sakti thi. kafi samay tak Ashna last lines padti rahi aur ektak us har ek akshar ko dekhti rahi jismain Main Virender ne pane dil ka ghubbar nikala tha. Wo Virender se naraz nahi thi per use accha nahin lag raha tha ke Virender use bhi galat samajta hai. Kafi der tak wo isi baare main sochti rahi fir achanak usne gahdi ki taraf dekha jo ki 5 bajane se kuch he duri per thi. Ashna achanak bed se uthi jaise use kuch yaad aya ho.
Usne diary band ki aur use wahin rakh diya jahan se use uthaya tha. Usne apne hand bag se Dr. Beena ka visiting card nikala aur unka no. dial kar diya. Ashna ke hath kanp rahe they no. dial karte hue, na jaane kya soch ker wo itna pareshan ho gei thi. kafi der bell jati rahi per Beena ne phone pick nahin kiya. Usne is baar bhi dial kiya lekin koi response nahin. Ashna puri tarah kanp uthi. Usne jaldi se apne kapdey pehney aur apna bag uthaker necche ki taraf bhage. Neeche aane per usne kaka ko awaz lagai jo ke uski ek awaz sunte he apne kamrey se bahar nikal aaye. Bihari kaka: are bitiya itni subah uth geyi, koi kaam hai kya. Ashna: kaka main hospital ja rahi hun, tum ghar ka khayal rakhna. Ashna ki awaz main kafi dar the jise kaka ne bhi bhanp liya aur bole bitiya sab theek to hai na. Virender babu theek hain na? Aur tumhari aankhen itni laal kyun hain, kya tumhein neend acche se nahin padi. Ashna: kaka sab theek hai per muje abhi jana hoga nahin to pata nahin kya ho jayega. Kaka: bitiya tum Itni subha subah akele kaise ja paogi. Ek kaam karo Virender babu ki gadi le jao. Ashna: per kaka muje to hospital ka rasta nahin maloom. Itna sunker Bihari kaka kuch der shant rahe aur fir bole main tumhare sath chalta hun aur fir wahn se taxi lekar wapis aa jaunga. Ashna ko yeh theek laga. Ashna: theek hai kaka. Gadi kichabi do, main gadi nikalti hun tab tak tum gahr ko lock kar do. Bihari ne Uper jaker Virender babu ke kamrey se gadi ki chabi laker Ashna ko di.
Chabi lekar Ashna garage ki taraf bhagi aur Biahri kaka ne apne kamrey se chabiyoon ka ghuccha laker ghar ko lock karna shuru kar diya. Garage pahunch ker ek pal ke liye Ashna ke kadam thithke kyunki yeh chabi kis gadi ki thi use pata na tha aur wahan per 4 gadiyaan khadi thi. Ashna ne bina wakt gawaye sabse pichli wali gadi ke lock main chabi ghusaai aur ghuma di. Gadi unlock kar di. Jab tak Ashna gadi ko main gate per lati Bihari kaka doudte hue wahan pahunch chuke they. Gadi unke paas ruki to Bihari kaka ne main gate lock kiya aur pichla darwaza khol ker wo usmain baith gey. Tabhi ashna ke phone ki ghanti baji. Ashna ne jaldi se bag khol ker usmain no. dekha. Dr. Beena ki cal aayi thi. Ashna ne call pick ki aur isse pehle ki Dr. kuch bolti, Ashna ne kaka ki taraf dekhkar Dr. se pucha Virendere ko hosh aa geya kya Dr. Beena: haan, Virender ko abhi kuch der pehle he hosh aaya hai bas abhi kuch der main uska checkup karne ja rahi hun. Dr. Abhay kal se out of station gey hain. Ashna ne ek gehri saans li aur kaha Dr. ek bahut zaroori baat karni hai aapse, is liye mere aane tak aap unse koi baat nahin karengi, yeh kehkar Ashna ne phone kata aur gadi douda di. Biahri kaka rasta batate gey aur 15 minute main he gadi hospital ki parking main khadi thi. Bihari kaka ko taxi ka kiraya dekar Ashna hospital ki aur bhagi. Enter karte he usne Dr. room ki taraf apne kadam mod liye. Cabin main Dr. Beena apni chair per baith ker uska wait kar rahi thi. Jaise he Ashna roon ke andar ghusi, Beena use dekh kar chounk gei. Ashna ke bikhre baal, laal ankhen aur ast vyast halat yeh bata rahi thi ke Ashna sari rat soi nahin aur kafi pareshan bhi hai. Andar aate he Ashna ne Beena se kaha Dr. muje aapse bahut zaroori baat karni hai. Beena: cool down Ashna, Virender ko hosh a geya hai aur ab uska heart normally work kar raha hai. Ghabrane ki koi zaroorat nahin. Pehle tum attached washroom main jaker apni halat sudharo, tab tak main chai banati hun.
Ashna bina kuch bole washroom main ghus gei aur thandey pani ke cheentoon se apni susti mitane lagi. acch tarah se hath muh doker aur apne baal aur kapdoon ki halat sudharker wo bahar aayi. BAhar aate he usne dekh ke Dr. Beena chai bana rahi hain ek corner main choti si kitchen main. Ashna bhi unke sath usi kithen main aa gei. Dr. Beena: ho gei fresh?, good, chalo ab chai peete hain aur muje sab kuch detail main batao. Yeh kehker unhone ek cup Ashna ki taraf badhaya. Ashna ne cup pakda aur bahar cabin main aaker ek chair per baith gei. Beena bhi apni chair per baith gei apne room ko lock karne ke baad. Beena: haan Ashna ab bolo aisa kya hua jo tum itni subah subah pareshan dikh rahi ho. Jab tumne muje call kiya to main tab wash room main thi, bahar aaker unknown no. dekha to pehle to ignore kar diya per fir jab maine call kiya to tumhari dari hui awaz ne muje chounka diya. Bolo kya baat hai. Ashna: Dr., Virender bhaiya ki diary maine padhi, unhe diary likhne ka shouk hai aur is tarah se Ashna ne unhe sari baateen bata di. Sab kuch janne ke baad Dr. ke chahre per bhi chinta ki lakeeren dekhi ja sakti thi. Dr.: Ashna sab kuch janne ke baad mina bas itna keh sakti hun ke Virender ne pichle kuch saloon main bahut kuch saha hai aur shayad uska dil ab aur dard bardasht na kar paye. Use kisi bhi tarah khush rakhna hoga taki uske dil par zyada dawab na pade aur sabse zyada zaroori ke uski shadi ho jani chaiye jisse uske jism main doudta lahu apni lay main doud sake. Ashna: lekin Dr., kya bhaiya per shadi ke liye dawab dalna theek rahega? Dr. Beena: kuch der chup rehne ke baad, Ashna shayad tum theek keh rahi ho, dawab main ho sakta hai ke uske dil per bura asar pade. lekin iske alawa koi chara bhi to nahin. Uski koi girlfriend bhi nahin hai jo use excite kare aur wo mazturbation ya sex karne per majboor ho jaye.
Ashna: Dr., aap kaise keh sakti hai ke agar bhaiya ki koi girlfriend ho to wo use masturbation ya sex per majboor kar sakti hai? (Ab Ashna bilkul khul ke Dr. se baat kar rahii thi). Dr. Beena: muskurate hue, Ashna yeh jo aurat ka jisam hota hain na yeh to buddhoon main b jaan deta hai aur Virender to abhi kafi jawan aur hatta-katta purush hai. Main yakeen ke sath keh sakti hun ke aisa he hoga. Ashna kuch der Dr. ki baatoon per gour karti rahi. Dr.Beena: Accha ashna tum chaho to yahan baitho ya mere sath chal sakti ho muje emergency ward ka ek round lena hai uske bad Virender ka checkup karke tumhein dawaiyoon ka samjaker use Discharge kar dungi. Ashna ki koi pratikriya na paker Beena ne apna hath Ashna ke hathoon per rakha. Dr. Beena ke garam hathoon hathoon ka sparsh jab Ashna ke thande hathoon per pada to Dono ne apne apne hath kehhnch liya. Ashna is liye chounki ke Beena ke garam hathoon ne usko khayaloon ki duniya sa bahar khainch liya ur Dr. Beena isliye chounki kyunki Ashna ke hath baraf ki tarah thande they. Beena ek sayani Dr. thi wo janti thi ke Ashna ya to dari hui hai ya kuch nervous hai. Beena: Ashna tum mujse kuch kehna chahti ho? Ashna ek dam hadbadai n..na..nahi Dr. wo main soch rahi thi ke . Itna kehkar Ashna khamosh ho jati hai. Dr. Beena: bolo Ashna, jo bhi bolna hai bol do . Mujpe bharosa rakho main tumhari baat sunungi aur samjungi. Ashna: Dr., bhaiya ke sath jo bhi hua usmain kuch dosh shayad mera bhi hai, mere karan bhi unhone kafi takleef jheli hai, mainn unhe is situation se bahar nikalna chahti hun per wo anjane main he sahi muj se nafrat karne lagey hain. To kya is wakt mera unke paas jaana unki sehat ke liye theek rahega. Dr. Beena uski baat sunker gehri soch main pad gei. Kuch der sochne ke baad Beena boli, Ashna tum akhiri baar bhaiya se kab mili thi. Ashna ko kuch samaj main nahin aya per fir bhi boli Papa ke antimsanskaar ke wakt. Dr: kya us wakt ki tumhare paas tumhari koi tasweer hai. Ashna ne sawaliya nazroon se use dekha aur fir apne bag se ak Album nikali. Ashna ne kuch panne palat ker Ek panna Dr. ke samne rakha “Yeh phot tab ki hai jab papa muje Boarding school main admit karwa ke aaye they. Yeh unke sath meri akhiri photo thi. Beena ne photo ko gour se dekha fir Ashna ki taraf dekha. Beena ki ankhoon main chamak aa gei jise Ashna ne saa mehsoos kiya per kuch samaj nahin payi. Beena ne jaldi se album band ki aur Ashna ki taraf badha di. Ashna ne album lekar bag main dal di aur Dr. ki taraf dekhne lagi. Dr. ke chahre per muskaan dekhker Ashna ne uska karan pucha.
